Am feeling better now. Am not feeling so sort of irritable, feeling a bit mischievous but thats cool, i like that. Have spoken to Dev today, gave him hell <smiles>, he has challenged me to meet him and say to his face what i said on the phone! Hmmm. Difficult one.If i dont go i'll look a wuss, if i do will i have the nerve to say to his face....... lol........ i dont think so somehow! i wasnt nasty to him or anything, just sort of jokey as i am, a bit sort of windy up. Well actually its not a difficult one really, altho normally i wouldnt refuse a challenge, under the circumstances and with full knowledge that he has two subs now i think its best i dont, im not wussing out, i wouldnt do that, im just doing what i thinks best, and i know Dev will understand that coz he's a super cool guy <sometimes>

Anyway.... i have recovered from my lack of sleep and have forgiven Steve.... mainly because i have no choice,lol and i know if i push my luck he might redden my arse cheeks, a spanking i can just about cope with but anything else i dont want ...not today......well when i say anything else...i really could do with a few hours of dungeons n things, but that isnt going to happen! So i will, for now, settle for what i get and hope it includes a nice glass or two of wine later.

Had a lovely chat today with a dommy type blokey via instant message, no plans to meet or anything like that, but just an interesting chat about Doms in the general and the dom/sub scene. It makes me crave so much what i know i can be. But at the same time crave the rebelliousness that goes with it. I guess i have to accept i am...as many others.... a bratty sub, and i guess that makes it a lot more difficult to find a Dom who is not only able but willing to take me on board. But i cant change, well i can change but it will be for the right one, and even then i am as i am to a certain extent. I hate labels as such but am rapidly learning from those who i have spoken to and who know me that a bratty sub is indeed a label apt for myself. Infact i quite pity the Dom who ends up being my master, he will find it very difficult to cope with i think. Steve thinks i am a complete wuss. he mocks me sometimes for being all mouth. You think he of all people would know!

I think i might write a sort of c.v thingy in my next post,lol...just a kind of jokey thing that will amuse me if no-one else.

Hmmm mind now doing that thing...................