Annoying monday mornings!, whats the point of them other than to cause distress to each and everyone of us! Had a mega late night last night in the false knowledge that i could have a lay in of sorts, what a load of balls that turned out to be, got woken at 6, yes 6!...by Steve who decided just because HE had to be up early for an appointment, i had to be up to!, inconsiderate arse! My eyes have only just started to focus, my coffee intake is at its maximum, and i feel a bit ratty and sort of irritable and basicaly just monday moodiness i guess. It wouldnt have been so bad if id been woken with a coffee and perhaps a little bit of 'use', but i got woken with an abrupt and rude 'get up and make the coffee'!! I did stomp, i did sulk, i did make the ocffee but very very reluctantly and to make matters worse when i placed it down on the side to give to him i placed it in a sort of slammy way and ended up spilling half of it.... no HE didnt clear it up, i bloody did, and then i had to make HIM another one!...whilst being half a sleep still, no consideration whatsobloodyever. AND he went off not happy at MY attitude!! Bloody men! So i have probably had about 30 mins sleep all night, well actually about 4 hours sleep which is still ridiculous!...granted it is my fault i went to bed so late so a little bit of thought would go along way! Sometimes i have an overwhelming urge to pin Steve down, tie him up, stick needles in his nipples and balls and then have him severely 'done' by some brute of a man or even myself with a great big unbearable killer strap on! hehe..... obviously i wouldnt and couldnt put its a great thought in theory! Hehe suffer arse! I am writing this in full knowledge that he will at some time read what ive written and probably react on it and make my life hell, but right at this moment i really dont care less! I am bloody tired! Well im not tired now but the point is i am now irritable because of his inconsideration, i could have had at least another 4 hours sleep! Even last night or early hours of the morning he was an arse, i offered him my body to use at his will, he declined <arse, arse, arse> and then once i was asleep decided to use my face to relieve and empty himself on! Anyway i dont like bloody mondays at this particular time.

Saturday night saw the start of x factor again, hilarious, i cannot believe how some people actually believe they can sing, and look so disappointed when Simon informs them they cant!, i myself sing all the time, but in full knowledge im not quite as good as Shakira or similar. Im good but not THAT good, i would die of embarressment if i ever had to sing to an audience or even in front of people i dont know! However.... perhaps for a chance to be abused <be it verbally> by Mr Cowell perhaps i would! That bloke just does that thing. I believe in his private life he is probably a right deviant, probably ties his girlfriend <witch> up and abuses her daily! Well at least in my mind he does. Anyway Mr Cowell is a frequent visitor to 'my world'!

I am still Domless, i have had had such a hectic weekend i havent even had chance to answer any memos or mails <sorry>. Oh and by the way DEV, haha very funny...not! Right........... now to something serious that has pissed me off a bit..... i had an email from a made up addy as conveniantly the name has been wiped so i cannot reply, accusing me of being 'greedy and selfish' stating that i am selfish for wanting another Dom when i have Steve, and a lot more besides that i shant repeat! Now altho i think it might perhaps be a wind up <mimi?> id like to set the record straight.... i am not greedy, i am not out to get what i can without regard to Steve, this is something Steve and I have decided together, Steve encourages it ALL the way and supports both myself and MAster. Infact he himself has spoken to a couple of Doms in the last week and always has phone contact with them. This is a path Steve and i walk together and one we are very happy to do, if it is a problem for anyone then get a life. I do not lie to anyone , if i speaking to a Dom i am straight with him and tell him about Steve, it has never been a problem for a genuine Dom type blokey and they are happy and willing to speak to Steve at anytime. I am not looking for an emotional commitment, i have that, i am not seeking an affair, i am merely seeking a master!!!!!

Anyway im now going to make myself another coffee and have a ciggy, then perhaps i shall find somebody to annoy and take my irritability out on! <smiles>

Blessings......... Kiri